lost to the wind

i'm lost.

in the absence of your touch
i played with the wind.
cool, teasing wind.

in the cover of wide fluorescent lights
i sighed and closed my eyes
the wind teased, and i imagined it was you.

i follow the wind.
it does not compel me the way your words do.
it does not evoke in me longing, the way your name does.
but i follow it, for you are not there to hold me, to keep me.

in the wind, i felt free. courageous even.
but in my heart of hearts, i hoped.

careful, breezy wind.
oh wind, wrap your arms around me and hold me close.
but in my soul of souls, i hoped.

whisper to me and i will fight the wind.
whisper to me and i will abandon the sweet, kind wind.

whisper to me.

whisper, before i am lost to the wind.